Place a little more Onto my shoulders A drop of water, break the camel's straw Knick me once again So softly celebrate One more sunrise one more sunset Subtle changes Go unnoticed Every day I chip a bit But less of me is more Each new twinge feels right at home As I forget 'before' The grand canyon formed Carved for centuries Water cut through solid stone Natural beauty Found in such decline. Every day I chip a bit But less of me is more Each new twinge feels right at home As I forget 'before' I accept my fate As the others did And as everybody will The body is a plane Intersected by The pains aches and scars that we build Into a skyscraper A hundred stories high A crushing weight a serene view The body is a plane Weathered by the wind Till the day it's pulled from the sky, finally.

Is she Someone I love, can I Create Novel emotions, am I destined to Rip off all Of my favorite bands’ Words on themes I’ve only lived vicariously Peter Your air is youthful, begets change Roma Your history forces me back To come to terms She doesn’t love me, I don’t love her Stability Exhale a breath of soft relief

Why do you say the things you Always go and say? Do the gears in your mind properly Operate? Why did you wear plain grey shirts Each day in 7th grade? What did you want to hide from? What did you anticipate? “Sorry that slipped out” You should take that back But lightning struck and the roar Of thunder surrounds you Who prescribed those lenses That cause such ache and strain? Distort self-vision, make it grainy Pixelate What rivers feed the roaring waves that Crash down on your plains? Recede to razor shells and driftwood Sliced through foot in vain Where did it come from? That ever present ring? Tinnitus built from years Of feeling so different When I flew home this winter I stared down the family tree Held the branches in my hand And fingered the brown leaves Asked the alcoholic, the immigrant, what would you think if you saw me now? Hand-me-down generational anxieties, Ghosts of those passed Passed on by people who know what it means to overcome their pasts Who’ve given all of themselves to ensure their child grows up well Went through the darkest days I’ve seen so far, unsure if there’s more to come Sunless days and silent nights measured in accumulated dread Of what was to come next Every interaction icier than Klyuchevaya sidewalks Slipping on each and every word, break a bone if I dared leave my house Felt like a shard of glass from the clear window I was or maybe wasn’t before But i went back 4,000 miles to confront myself And the image of a person incapable of loving the things Surrounding them that brought them joy not so long ago Cause they’re not normal, they’re abnormal, I couldn’t find a wonder cure to lack of self-confidence And the tunnel vision feeling that every movement is significant And idea that others see crooked lines and a jagged person just cause that’s what i see But I think I understand the problem better now cause it’s A note in my telephone no one is noticing Because my abnormal to them is what their torn jeans are to me Know I’m normal tell myself No, I’m normal As I am

Сколько лет прошло, всё о том же гудят провода Всё того же ждут самолёты Девочка с глазами из самого синего льда Тает под огнём пулемета Должен же растаять хоть кто-то Скоро рассвет Выхода нет Ключ поверни - и полетели Нужно вписать В чью-то тетрадь Кровью, как в метрополитене: Выхода нет Выхода нет Где-то мы расстались - не помню в каких городах Словно это было в похмелье Через мои песни идут и идут поезда Исчезая в тёмном тоннеле Лишь бы мы проснулись в одной постели Скоро рассвет Выхода нет Ключ поверни - и полетели Нужно вписать В чью-то тетрадь Кровью, как в метрополитене: Выхода нет Выхода нет Сколько лет пройдёт, всё о том же гудеть проводам Всё того же ждать самолётам Девочка с глазами из самого синего льда Тает под огнём пулемёта Лишь бы мы проснулись с тобой в одной постели Скоро рассвет Выхода нет Ключ поверни - и полетели Нужно вписать В чью-то тетрадь Кровью, как в метрополитене: Выхода нет Выхода нет Выхода нет Выхода нет